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Hey everyone! [08 Aug 2005|09:26am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Lol well its been a LONG time since I've been on livejournal and since I since I have an hour till my next class I thought I would post something on here :) Hmmm where to start. Life has been pretty hecktic around these parts lately for differnt reasons. My stepdad is still in the shadow of losing his job, which we know will happen cause Sprint isn't keeping criminal investigators or fraud investigators if they don't have their B.A. So that has shot the stress level at home through the roof which doesn't help the rest of us. Mom just walks around like nothing is happening when Dave is around, but I know the stress is affecting her as badly as my sister and I. Rylee kinda knows whats going on I guess, I haven't talked to her about it but she's at the dinner table when its discussed. So she has to know. Then this last week I had a huge money fiasco becasue I spent $140 of my dads money that goes toward college on other things and I didn't know if I was going to get it, so i may have had to borrow it from my mom. Thankfully I got enough and payed on Friday but something happened midway through it processing online and it didn't successfully go through, so my money is somewhere in limbo and I need to go talk to the bank to get it back. All by tomorrow. Hmm, well just 4 days left of school and then summer quarter is over and I hop on a plane bound for Arizona and soak up a lot of sun! I know we've had a lot of sun up here but I can't wait to get down to Arizona =D Crap I read this bulletin on the wall and forgot where I was going. Yup, totally forgot where I was going with that and its not coming back. Its weird how you can think of all these things to talk about before you log on but they disappear when you start writing. Oh I did horribly last quarter with my grades and had to take 2 classes over but this quarter I think I will do really well in them :) I have about 3.5's in both classes and all I need to do is study hard for the last tests and I should do fine. I hope. Ok well I guess thats everything I can think of, that sucks. TTYL!

1 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[08 May 2005|03:35pm]
I WON THE SHIRT!! Lol, short little blurb!
love at first sight

[07 May 2005|12:40pm]
Ok, I know I'm late on this damn band-wagon but I LOVE EBAY!!!!! I just signed up on Friday and I'm already in a bidding war for this SUPER CUTE orange Abercrombie & Fitch polo shirt that ends in like 40 minutes. And I'm bidding for 3 other shirts and possibly a pair of Puma shoes. SO CUTE! Hmm, what else. I think thats it for the moment, I mean I know I have more to talk about but I have a shirt to watch like a hawk for 39 more minutes. LATERS!
2 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[18 Apr 2005|01:20pm]
Hey everyone :) Oh crap, what was I going to talk about. Ok i'll work backward, today had a Biology test that I just know I totally flopped, it was just awful. I mean there were two diagrams on the test that we had to explain and diagrham and I had no fucking idea what I was supposed to put and, ya it was just bad all around. Got my grade on my math test today, was a little surprised thought I would do better than I did. I got 44.5 out of 50 questions right. I mean still pretty good since the average in class was a 30 out of 50. And the proffessor let us do corrections so I did them all in class and turned them in. Hopefully that will bring my grade up to about a 47 or so, I'll be extremelly happy :) In my women's class we're starting to do research on the woman we are going to write about for our paper. I'm gonna do mine on Mary Queen of Scots, excecuted by her cousin Elizabeth the Queen of England. Hold on a sec, gotta find a good song on my ipod....There we go, damnit lost my train of thought. Oh well. Over the weekend what did I do. Sunday my interent connection went out, Comcast was having probelms or something like that so I was seperated for like 7 or 8 hours. Lol, for me thats a lifetime, and yes I know I'm pathetic. Well instead of me being online all day my family and I went downtown and saw "Volcanoes of the Deep Sea" on Imax in the Science Center. Very very fascinating but my sister thought it was boring. K i better go meet my friend, I'll finish this later. BYe!
3 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[10 Apr 2005|03:42pm]
Everyone go look at my livejournal, I updated it with a hot ass pic lol :)
2 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[10 Apr 2005|11:05am]
[ mood | blah ]

Hehehehe, yesterday was awesome! I got to hang out with my friend Jyn and we went SHOPPING!! Lets just say I did some major damage to my bank account lol :) I bought these AWESOME boots from Hot Topic, their knee-high black leather lace up combat boots. I look HOT in them! I will get a pic of them up on my myspace as soon as possible hehehe. I also bought this super cute belt buckle from there too, its a heart with like barb-wired shaped wire wrapped around the heart. Its hard to descibe but its CUTE! I also got this jacket from Zumiez by Billabong, its black white and pink. I'm wearing it right now! Lol, just got back from church and now am totally bored out of my mind. Still need to do the homework thats due tomorrow, so not looking forward to it. Damn. K, i better go do that and I need to finish cleaning my room. BYe!

2 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

Howdy! [07 Apr 2005|10:02pm]
[ mood | working ]

Hello everyone, I am finally updating so I can make a couple people happy :) Ok, well what is new with me. Oh god, well I failed my math class last quarter which has totally banished any privelages I had b4. This is only hanging out with friends during the week, but I'm going to put a stop to that stupid fucking rule because I am not a child anymore. And I mean I do my damn homework so I don't know why the hell I should still be punished. So w/e. I got the first and second season of Family Guy on DVD two days ago for 30 bucks at Costco, I was SOOOOO excited! Now I have to go back for the first season of Futurama real soon. I am still unfortunately single although I think I have a major problem with relationships. Like I get tired of going out with a guy like by the second date. Like the last guy I met I got tired of after like the first time I went out with him. Although he was boring as hell and I could tell he wasn't my type at all. I don't think I can get into that boyfriend role, like not looking at other guys and all that. Omg I remember distinctly saying something about a guy when I was with my ex one time. He was not happy lol. But I mean i got tired of him too and eventually broke it off. He felt like I was using him because I never had any feelings and it just turned into a horrible ordeal. Now he wants to get back together and I'm like hell no! I just want some action, like meet the guy, hang out for like a couple hours, shack up and then leave. Maybe spend the night but then I would have to explain to my parents why I didn't come home and that wouldn't be good. Ok, my sweater is done from the laundry. BYe!!!

3 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[08 Jan 2005|03:41pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

Ok, the first week of school is over, and I hate it already! I missed the first day of English because I thought the class started at 10:30 when it started at 9:30. So that was really bad. Then on Tuesday I was 15 minutes late to my Math 099 class, so that was really bad. Then on Wednesday I was late for my English class and I was on time for my Math 099 class. Then I totally skipped my friday English class. Yes this quarter is starting so well! My English class is an hour and fifty minutes long and my Math class is two hours and twenty minutes. I got such bitchin' classes! Lol. I'm not sure which movie I'm watching, but its about sharks and the shark wrangler as he calls himself is H.O.T.T.!! Lol, wel that was very, whats the word, random =) Hmm, well its snowed last night a light dusting but I was very excited because its the first snow at this house for me :) If only it happened on Monday though lol. That would have been awesome. Hmm, well I don't know what else to write about =)

1 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[27 Dec 2004|11:28pm]
[ mood | What the fuck is wrong with me ]

WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO!!!!! God just tell me!!!! I've pushed another one away, but its weird. I wanted to meet him so bad and he knew that i didn't want a serious relationship. Why the hell did he have to go and say that he was having deep feelings for me! I apparently said something that made him think that I had deep feelings for him and now, I don't know! I just want to fucking cry myself to death. I should have known something was up when he said that he would love it if I moved in with him and if I did he would buy me a beamer. I mean we have only known each other for like a week or more! Fuck life

1 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[24 Dec 2004|09:22pm]
[ mood | bubbly ]

Well merry christmas everyone!!! I may have meet someone, but I'm not sure yet. He's 27 (not a problem with me)has a son who is 21 (adopted him at 20 and eric (the son) was 12 or 13) who's older than me lol, very funny I know, his name is James and he lives in Olympia which could be a major problem considering thats like an hour or more from where I live so this could be harder than with Nick. But we shall see. Ooo and I think he's getting me an ipod for christmas, and we haven't even meet yet! Lol, he's apparently rich or something like that because he's in the realty business, buys and sells homes. Thats not important though, so don't get me wrong. We met on match.com so I'm kinda nervous to meet him, I think I will like just set up a day to meet him and talk and stuff like that. Nothing more. Even though we have talked about a more serious relationship ;) He wants to buy me a custom fit collar. I think thats hot but other people may not. Hmmm, ok I'm gonna go I'll talk to everyone later. NIGHT AND MERRY CHRISTMAS YA'LL!!!

1 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[19 Dec 2004|09:18pm]
[ mood | fuck everything! ]

K, this will be an update so that I can vent, before all of the freaking thoughts escape from my mind. My ex is being an ass but I really don't care, he is just a jerk sometimes and says all this shit about how we could be friends with benefits and then takes it back, even though there would be no way in hell anything like that would happen but whatever. I'm back in Cali and I am realizing how much I hated it here and realizing how much I love it back in Seattle. There is no way in hell that I would move back here. NO WAY! The only thing I have missed the most is my friends, but not my family. I'm awful aren't I?? I don't care, its what I feel inside. My grandma is moving down to Arizona so the thing I am going to have to do most is help her pack. I want so much to get back in Seattle, I'm just craving it! I want to see Samantha, and Sammi and Winona, I mean I love my friends down here, Melissa and Joy and Amy but I am realizing that Seattle is my home. And my grandma is so damn controling and all this shit, I'm just pissed off right now. Incredibly pissed off.

6 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[16 Dec 2004|11:18am]
[ mood | crazy ]

You Were Very Naughty This Year!

Naughty, naughty! You've given Santa a broken heart.
You probably won't get anything from Mr. Claus
Except for a well deserved spanking
(Which you'll probably enjoy, you sicko!)

4 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[29 Nov 2004|12:33pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Hehehehehe, I see that I haven't updated in a while so I will do so now :) Well, I got back yesterday from my trip down to Cali for Thanksgiving break, it was a lot of fun but I was so ready to come back home to see all my friends who I missed terribly. Hmmm, wednesday I hung out with two friends from my high school and that was a lot of fun, we got caught up on how everyone was doing, and then we went over to Rasputins and I got a CD, Gwen Stefani's new one. It is so cool, totally grew on me when at first I didn't think I was going to like it. Thurdsday I went over to my other Grandma's house and had dinner with my dad's side of the family, good chance to see everyone, and they were all really glad to see me. Friday I went over to my friend Melissa's dad and stepmom's house and had dinner there. It was all really good food and I got to meet most of her family. Then Saturday I went and saw Team America World Police, which was so hilarious I was like laughing so hard during that movie. I also went over to my Aunt's house and had dinner therefor thanksgiving, my dad's birthday and my gma's birthday. Then Sunday I got on a plane and am home :) Lol, short and sweet, and totally to the point. Umm, thats all thats new, I am waiting for Samantha to get out of mathand then maybe we can go like have a coffee or something before I have to be home to watch my sister. BYe!!

3 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[08 Nov 2004|03:00pm]
[ mood | scared ]

So, unbelievably, tired!

1 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[08 Nov 2004|10:29am]
[ mood | flirty ]

Ok, no one replied to my LAST POST, so i feel soooooo loved! Lol, j/k. Well, did a lot this weekend. Friday after we turned in our paper Sammi and I bussed over to Alderwood to do some shopping and see a movie, unfortunately Winona could not come. Made me sad. Umm, found out Sam was over there too seeing Napoleon Dynamite with Jordan, so Sammi and I meet her after Jordan left and we all did some shopping together, kinda. Well, i did all the shopping hahahaha. Then we went to lunch at Ruby's, whihc I don't think I will go to again. Then we all hopped in Sam's car and drove over to Bellevue Square so that Sam could pick up her schedule for work and hung out there for like an hour and a half. We had to meet Jon, Sam's date at the movie theaters just down the street, but we got lost along the way and showed up 20 minutes late for the movie we were going to see, so we decided (after a long while lol) to go see "Saw." Holy shit it scared the crap out of me! It was awful, Sam and Sammi had their hands over their eyes most of the time, and there was a few parts that I couldn't watch myself. I still get chills when I think about it. There was one hilarious thing that happened though, I reached for my soda, Sammi is sitting next to me, and it makes a noise and she screamed her head off. I was laughing so hard I started to cry. I thought that was funny hehehe. Well, after that we meet up with Mike and Jake, two of Sam's other friends and we were going to go bowling, but they decided they didn't want to go and pretty much ditched us. Whatever. Lol, so after that we dropped Sammi off at her house, and Sam and I went to Denny's at like 11:45 at night or soemthing like that. Lol, I had a blast. Saturday I saw the incredibles and I thought it was a really good movie, I want to go see it again soon. Ok, I'm in the library at school right now and Sam just called, I have to go outside to call her back. BYe!!

6 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[01 Nov 2004|06:29pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Wow, just read the last post I put on here, and I can say that I feel a whole lot better. I paid off my debt to my stepdad so I feel a whole lot better. Its like the world has been lifted off my shoulers! Haha, I feel really good :) And my friends have been a big help through this, thanks Sam, Sammi and Winona!! I love you all! Well, Friday all 4 of us ditched English class and hung out in the Pub till class was over talking about different stuff, but sex was at the top lol :P At least I believe it was one of the top things. Hahaha, ANYWAY, then we went out to Bellevue Square so that Sam could get a schedule for work. Then we hung out there, had lunch at Red Robin, which I was DYING to have, and checked out a bunch of the stores with the real snobby people who worked there. The Puma store was my favorite, I just wish they had a pair sweatpants that said Puma across the butt :D I think that would be cool. But most guys stuff doesn't have that. K, then we dropped Sammi off and Winona off at the Ferry Depot or whatever its called, and Sam and I got lost. Lol, it was funny. Hmm, that was Friday except condensed. I don't remember Saturday for some reason, I mean I wasn't drunk or anything lol.

Then on Halloween night I rode the bus into downtown Seattle, first time riding the bus I might add (not like thats an achievement or anything :P) and met Winona and her friend Rory and saw The Grudge at 7:45. IT IS NOT A GOOD IDEA TO SEE IT AT NIGHT!!!!! We came out and they had to run to catch a ferry and I was stuck waiting outside the mall where we saw the movie and wait for my stepdad to come pick me up. I was always looking behind me and shit like that, I was still freaked out, but it was a really good movie! I think that Sam, Sammi, Winona and I might go see it again, I hope! Unless Winona chickens out lol. Or we could see The Forgotten or whatever its called or Sammi told me about The Saw which sounds interesting. So, we have to make plans for that in advance this time ;-) Gotta start studying for my quiz in Chemistry and Pre-calculus tomorrow and figure out what I'm going to write about for Friday's paper. BYe!!!

love at first sight

[26 Oct 2004|06:52pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Ok, things are not going very well for me. My stress level has shot through the roof and I find myself unable to control my emotions at times, so I can go from happy to unfathomable depths of saddness and then do another 90 degree turn and get angry and throw things. I have owed money to my stepdad for almost a month now but I couldn't pay him back because i was changing backs and its kind of hard to do that when my bank is back in California, but i started a new account here and transfered my money so I have to pay him back. I owe a little over 400 bucks and it just drives me crazy that I couldn't pay him back. And when it comes to money he is totally worrysome about it so if one little thing goes wrong he's in a bad mood the rest of the day, which rubs off on the rest of us. I called up my grandma to talk to her about money problems and I just lost it and told her about how I am beginning to hate it up here. I love going to school and seeing my core group of friends but then i hate going home. I don't want to live like this anymore and have been seriously considering moving back home. My grandma said that she would love it if I moved back, and said that no one would think I was a quiter, but I would. I would think that I gave up when I shood have muscled through it. So she said that i just have to get through this till Thanksgiving and then when i fly down there for my break we would talk about it. I jsut can't keep these feeling bottled up anymore. Thats it, cut and dry. My ear is starting to throb again, and its not a pleasant feeling. I have found myself seriously just ending all this bullshit, and I haven't thought about that in quite a while.

7 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[19 Oct 2004|05:28pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

Yeah, I'm 18. I had a great day on Saturday, went and got my ear done. *Shows it off* Oh, wait, its a computer, lol. =) I got whats called an industrial, its a bar with to balls on the end and it goes through two points on the ear, mines up near the top part of my left ear. I'm sooooo happy, except this morning i got in the shower and looked in the mirror and saw that there was dried blood all over my ear. I must have rolled over in the middle of the night or something and caused it to do that. Lol, its still oozing and it dries black for some reason. Then, Saturday night we went to Uptown China in the city and it was very nice, except that that bratty friend of Rylee's had to come with us. I really don't like him at all. Ya, ya, he's only seven but I don't care, he just embarrases the hell out of me and I'm not even related to him. Had a calculus test today, and was totally not ready for it, I have this awful feeling I'm going to fail that class, but I think I'm going to drop it anyway. Then theres a chemistry lab tomorrow and i have to right up my lab report and my pre-lab for tomorrow. And to add to that we have a three to five page essay due friday. Crap! Thankfully its double-spaced. OOoo, i went shopping yesterday with Samantha and got an outfit from Express for Men, and we matched today lol. I thought it was funny, even though it was planned. Everyone was starring and saying stuff about us, and trying to be all secret about it but they couldn't hide it lol. Ok, thats it, I have to call my calculus tutor about meeting with her, then maybe i can understand that dispicable class. BYe!!

3 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[08 Oct 2004|07:02pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

Hey everyone! Haven't updated in a while so I thought I would just put down what I've been up to. Lol, like you all care =) Well, I moved up here to Seattle, and I was sad for the first couple days but then the thought of starting college caught up and I got all excited and nervous and all that shit. Lol. Well, September 27th was my first day, and I was so nervous! I got through the day and in the end it was actually pretty good. I just wasn't able to eat that morning because my stomach wouldn't stay down. Ok, well then the first week was done and I felt even more relieved because I now realize I can actually do this. My classes are Chemistry 101, a Chemistry Lab every Wednesday, English 101, and Math 110 which is pre-calculus. That is my least favorite class because it scares the shit out of me. Well, I also met a friend from my english class and she is really nice, which makes me happy to actually have met someone. Then there are some other girls in English that I'm not sure if their pretending to be friends or not because they've done that to my friend Samantha. Lol, its high school all over again. Well, the second week is done and I'm staring to hate school because of all the damn homework. Now I know its high school all over again. Ok, I'm getting very hungry and I don't know how long dinner will be ready so I'm going to go get a snack.

9 little lovelies <33 love at first sight

[12 Sep 2004|12:48pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Ahhh, got back from the stupid week long camping trip last night. I am so glad its over. But I don't really want to talk about that hell, so I'll just push that right out of my thought process right now. I can't believe it, less than a week I'll have moved up to Washington and then in about two weeks college starts. I'm getting really excited! Ok, short post but whatever.

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