K, this will be an update so that I can vent, before all of the freaking thoughts escape from my mind. My ex is being an ass but I really don't care, he is just a jerk sometimes and says all this shit about how we could be friends with benefits and then takes it back, even though there would be no way in hell anything like that would happen but whatever. I'm back in Cali and I am realizing how much I hated it here and realizing how much I love it back in Seattle. There is no way in hell that I would move back here. NO WAY! The only thing I have missed the most is my friends, but not my family. I'm awful aren't I?? I don't care, its what I feel inside. My grandma is moving down to Arizona so the thing I am going to have to do most is help her pack. I want so much to get back in Seattle, I'm just craving it! I want to see Samantha, and Sammi and Winona, I mean I love my friends down here, Melissa and Joy and Amy but I am realizing that Seattle is my home. And my grandma is so damn controling and all this shit, I'm just pissed off right now. Incredibly pissed off.